I passionately and deeply love the Earth. I have felt this for as long as I can remember, and it has called me and guided me throughout my life: the sense of a deeper meaning, that there is a big picture from which positive change is guided, and that we all need to do what is in our heart’s calling to keep this planet a beautiful place for all life.
I grew up in Melbourne, Australia with my single mum. My favourite place and sanctuary was in the branches of our jacaranda tree, from where I would look through the beautiful green fronds to the sky and feel the loving, living presence of the Earth. From my teens this presence became an inner drive to understand what life was, what created meaning and purpose. I went on to study at Melbourne University, obtaining a Bachelor of Science in zoology and physical education.
I explored many spiritual traditions and esoteric practices, none of which called me, until age 25 when I met Ananda, an amazing heart-centred, pragmatic, deeply spiritual and wise person. I instantly recognised her, and knew that working with her was the path I had been seeking.
Then followed an extraordinary three decades of immensely fulfilling training, development, study and service in the heart-centred western esoteric tradition that Ananda taught. The work was focussed on Earth healing, study and development to create conscious change, personally and globally. I learned and taught, became an ordained minister, and found fulfilment of that deep connection and love I had for the Earth and nature since my childhood. I worked closely with Ananda as her assistant and program coordinator, a role I deeply cherished. At Ananda’s urging, I began writing transmissions in the late 90’s. (read more about transmission)
While my spiritual life was full, my personal life was challenged. I married and had a son, then lost my grandmother, my mother, and then my marriage, within three years. My health began to slowly decline. Now a single mum, I worked at anything I could do to support my son and myself, from ironing and housekeeping, to administration, and then becoming an IT trainer.
In 1999 came a significant event, when Ananda asked Brenton and I to go to Adelaide, to teach and work there. Our working relationship quickly bloomed into a loving partnership. From Adelaide we moved to Canberra, and from there travelled extensively to teach and run retreats in Australia and internationally. I went from IT training to business analysis, and then to consulting on organisational change and business process reform, expressing the same passion I have in my spiritual work for integrating higher goals into everyday activity and energising positive change.
Life was full, but my health continued to decline, and despite trying every path I could find through western and natural medicine, I had to stop all consulting and our spiritual work in 2012 due to overwhelming chronic fatigue, migraines and other health challenges.
We had to sell and leave our home, and take to the road with our cat, house-sitting and farm-caretaking over the next 3 years. This was a particularly tough and challenging period, while at the same time imbued with the inner knowing it was a journey of transformation that we had to take.
Eventually we were able to settle in the Northern Rivers, a beautiful part of Australia, and now live in a little home not far from the sea, from where we work and write. In 2018, I fulfilled a 40-year old interest and completed a Cert IV in Permaculture, and I love to spend time in my small garden and food forest, connecting to our beautiful Earth, and continuing to learn ways to live sustainably in our world.
After nearly 15 years of searching, I finally found that the cause of my health challenges was complex post-traumatic stress from my early childhood. I have worked hard to become conscious of its effects and change its debilitating health impacts, with the help of an excellent Hakomi therapist, my spiritual knowledge and practices, and my wonderful husband.
I felt I finally turned a corner with my health in 2019, and began to regain some vitality. Only since then have I been able to return to my love of spiritual work, through meditation and writing. Although I still have health challenges, I feel I am emerging from this deeply challenging and transformative time into a new phase of fulfilment and service, and that certainly brings much joy to my heart, and hope for the future 🙂